I was just thinking that I haven't been posting on my blog very much lately because there hasn't been much that I've wanted to write about. It's not that I haven't been learning anything from God, but what I have been learning is more personal stuff than anything else. While I am still reading my Bible, much of what I've been learning has been more the kind of stuff where you see something cool in a verse and you want to apply it to your life... I had no idea how hard it would be to explain this. I'm learning, but it's not necessarily learning in the sense that I can teach someone else what I'm learning, and it's not so much learning as it is God telling me His plan and calling for me.
As I was thinking about it, I became discouraged. I like being able to share what I'm learning, but if I can't teach what God is teaching me, then my blog has no use in this time of my life. I felt like, even though I know there's a ton of stuff left for me to learn about God from the Bible, maybe I've already learned all the teachable stuff about the Bible. Then I realized how ridiculous, prideful, and stupid it was for me to think that. There's always something to learn from the Bible! God is always teaching us, whether or not we realize it, and He teaches us so that we can teach others.
Now, when I thought that there wasn't much left for me to learn from the Bible, my perspective was not so much prideful as it was discouraging. I want to learn more! This can't be all there is to learn; there has to be more! But then God showed me something: I'm on a different level of learning than I was before. Before, I only learned surface level teaching and encouragement, but now I'm learning what it means to grow in relationship with Christ. In earthly relationships, there are some things that couples keep between themselves, and it's the same in our relationships with God. Even among groups of friends, there will be things that someone will share with one friend but not with another because the relationship may not be the right kind to share certain information. For example, in high school I would talk about band stuff with my band friends and stuff about the Bible with friends at TNT. (This was before I got to UGA, where the majority of my friends are in both band and Freshley. But even within my Redcoat friends there are still a few people that I'll talk to about band stuff while I talk to others more about my studies in the Bible.) It's the same way with God: He has different things to share with each one of us, and some of those things are meant to stay between us and God. The truth is that some things can't be put into words to even attempt to share with other people, so we have no choice but to keep them between us and God. And that's where I am now. While I am still learning things that I can share with others, I'm also learning things that are meant to encourage and strengthen me and bring me closer to God personally.
So if you're in a similar place, where you can't seem to put your thoughts about God into words, don't be discouraged! You're still growing. You can be certain that God will see to it that you know as much about Him as you need to for every situation in your life.
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